Review: The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Emily M. Danforth

Image of book cover from Goodreads
Image of book cover from Goodreads

Title: The Miseducation of Cameron Post

Author: Emily M. Danforth

Category: YA Contemporary (LGBTQIAP+)

Publisher/Date: Balzer + Bray/7 February 2012

Edition: ebook

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/11595276-the-miseducation-of-cameron-post

Amazon: https://smile.amazon.com/Miseducation-Cameron-Post-emily-danforth/dp/0062020579/

Barnes and Noble: https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/the-miseducation-of-cameron-post-emily-m-danforth/1103168077#/

When Cameron Post’s parents die suddenly in a car crash, her shocking first thought is relief. Relief they’ll never know that, hours earlier, she had been kissing a girl.

But that relief doesn’t last, and Cam is soon forced to move in with her conservative aunt Ruth and her well-intentioned but hopelessly old-fashioned grandmother. She knows that from this point on, her life will forever be different. Survival in Miles City, Montana, means blending in and leaving well enough alone (as her grandmother might say), and Cam becomes an expert at both.

Then Coley Taylor moves to town. Beautiful, pickup-driving Coley is a perfect cowgirl with the perfect boyfriend to match. She and Cam forge an unexpected and intense friendship — one that seems to leave room for something more to emerge. But just as that starts to seem like a real possibility, ultrareligious Aunt Ruth takes drastic action to ‘fix’ her niece, bringing Cam face-to-face with the cost of denying her true self — even if she’s not exactly sure who that is.

The Miseducation of Cameron Post is a stunning and unforgettable literary debut about discovering who you are and finding the courage to live life according to your own rules.

This book has content warnings for homomisia, conversion camps, abuse of minors, ableism, self harm (brief but graphic imagery), familial death, a car crash, drugs, and sexual content.

I understand why this is an important book and it has a lot going for it, but there were a lot of things about the book that really put me off. Starting with the positives, I really appreciated the authenticity that I felt from the depiction of the conversion camp and the different perspectives that come from places like that. Conversion camps are incredibly manipulative and scary, and I felt that both the abuse taking place there and the either conceding or rebelling from the program felt real to me. This is a perspective that we really need in the world, and for that I really appreciate it.

With that being said, there were several things I didn’t like about the book. I didn’t like Cameron as a character very much because I didn’t feel like I got a good sense of her as a person; I felt that throughout the entire book I was watching her react to things, kind of, but she wasn’t doing much of anything herself. The only time she didn’t feel completely passive was when she started yelling at her aunt, and she did that to get a reaction out of her. Her emotions were so muted that I really couldn’t get myself to identify with her at all, and that made it difficult for me to care about her personally. I was invested enough to want her to get out of the conversion camp because that place is awful, and that was about it.

The pacing of this book was also extremely slow, and it frustrated me. This might have been because the voice of the book felt so bland to me and so it felt like it was dragging on for a while, but it seemed like a lot of this book could have been cut out without doing much to the story.

One other thing that really bothered me was the presence of a disabled character who had a prosthetic leg; the only purpose she served was to hide drugs within her prosthesis at the camp, and this felt really uncomfortable to me because this was the only physical disability rep we got in this book and it wasn’t great. I don’t really know anything else about that character except she used her disability to hide and sell drugs at the camp. Not great.

I had a hard time rating this book because I do think it’s important, but it also really wasn’t the book for me. I recommend reading it because of its importance, but it’s not something I’d want to read again because it’s a bit boring and monotone.

Final rating: 3.5 of 5 stars

TBR Thursday: How To Make A Wish Edition!

That thing I said about using fewer exclamation points in my January wrap-up post? Already defenestrating it.

TBR Thursday is a new thing that I’m doing that consists of me 1.) choosing a book that I haven’t read yet that I plan to get to this week, and 2.) me making up excuses about why I haven’t read it, most of which will be terrible. Last week’s book was The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Emily M. Danforth — and I read it! It was my first read of the 24 in 48 Readathon, so I was sure to get it out of the way quickly. I liked it well enough, though I wouldn’t call it a favorite book of mine by any means. I’ll have a review of it up in a little while!

This TBR Thursday thing has been quite successful at shaming me into reading books that I should have read a while ago but haven’t yet. I’m rather glad I started doing this!

This week’s book is How To Make a Wish by Ashley Herring Blake!

Image of book cover from Goodreads
Image of book cover from Goodreads

Sooo I may or may not have won this book during the previous 24 in 48 Readathon (I totally did). I got sent a nice hardcover of the book from the publisher that has been sitting on my coffee table since I received it. Why? I don’t know! It just has been!

I picked this book as my prize because I’d heard so many good things about it on Twitter, and I am genuinely excited to read it. After putting it off for so long, I’d made plans to use it for my YA resources class this term for my LGBTQIAP+ book, but after the whole VOYA situation with Let’s Talk About Love by Claire Kann I put that one in its place in my class reading list instead.

Even if I’m switching up my reading list, though, I still need to read this one. There is literally no reason why I couldn’t have read this book closer to when I’d received it. It’s just been sitting on the table next to the cat. Sigh.

What are you planning to read this week? Let me know in the comments!

January 2018 Wrap-up!

So, I just want to start off this post with a few stats:

  • Number of posts in January: 20 (including this one)
  • Number of review posts in January: 7
  • Number of non-review posts in January: 13 (including this one)
  • Number of non-review posts in January that have an exclamation point in the title: 8 (including this one…)

I may need to cool it on the exclamation points just a BIT.

Anyways, this was a big blogging month for me. For a large part of the month before school hit me hard, I was posting daily, and even after that I managed to post at least twice a week. Considering how sparsely I’d been posting through all of 2017 despite starting this blog in January of last year, I feel like I’ve done a great job of getting myself in more of a routine with blogging. I still need to work on that, but it’s a start. In January 2018 alone, I almost doubled both the number of posts I’ve written AND how many page views I’ve gotten on the blog — doubling my stats from the entirety of last year. My blog is still really small, but that felt like a huge accomplishment.

Reads for January

This was a big reading month for me, too! Here’s all I read in January:

Before I Let Go by Marieke Nijkamp — 3.5 of 5 stars — review here!

Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson — 4 of 5 stars — For class, so one of my only permitted rereads. Review here!

I Believe in a Thing Called Love by Maurene Goo — 3 of 5 stars — review here!

You’ll Miss Me When I’m Gone by Rachel Lynn Solomon — 5 of 5 stars — review here!

One Last Word by Nikki Grimes — 5 of 5 stars — an excellent poetry collection I read for class.

Hillary Rodham Clinton by Karen Blumenthal — 5 of 5 stars — a great biography with really nice writing.

Ramona Blue by Julie Murphy — 4.5 of 5 stars — review here!

The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas — 5 of 5 stars — I was fortunate enough to have been assigned this book for class, so I got to bypass my “no rereads” policy to read it again. One of my favorites.

The Five Stages of Andrew Brawley by Shaun David Hutchinson — 5 of 5 stars — review forthcoming!

Love, Hate and Other Filters by Samira Ahmed — 5 of 5 stars — one of my favorites of the month. Don’t pass this one up. Review forthcoming!

The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Emily M Danforth — 4 of 5 stars — review forthcoming!

The Girl with the Red Balloon by Katherine Locke — 5 of 5 stars — review forthcoming!

Down In The Belly Of The Whale by Kelley Kay Bowles (ARC) — 1 of 5 stars — review forthcoming!

See All The Stars by Kit Frick (ARC) — 5 of 5 stars — review forthcoming!

The Smoke Thieves by Sally Green (ARC) — 3 of 5 stars — review forthcoming!

The Summer of Jordi Perez (and the Best Burger in Los Angeles) by Amy Spalding (ARC) — 4.5 of 5 stars — review forthcoming!

The Cat Encyclopedia for Kids by Joanne Mattern (ARC) — 3 of 5 stars — review forthcoming!

My Cat Yugoslavia by Pajtim Statovci — 2 of 5 stars — library book that fell flat for me. It was weird and I don’t even want to review it because I don’t care enough.

Krazy: George Herriman, A Life In Black And White by Michael Tisserand — 5 of 5 stars — wonderful biography of one of my favorite comics creators. Review forthcoming!

Queerly Loving #2 edited by G Benson and Astrid Ohletz (ARC) — 5 of 5 stars — a wonderful anthology of queer stories. Review forthcoming!

Reading stats:

  • Number of books read: 20
  • Number of books read during the 24 in 48 Readathon: 10
  • Number of nonfiction books: 3
  • Number of ARCs: 6
  • Number of books by marginalized authors: ~13
  • Number of books read for class: 6
  • Number of library books: 5

It’s worth noting that almost all of the books I read that weren’t by marginalized authors were either ARCs I received or books I read for class. I really like supporting marginalized authors, so I’m happy with that number.

I clearly have a lot of reviews I need to write still! This is largely because all of those books were either read during or right before the 24 in 48 Readathon, and if I’d been reviewing as I went during the readathon there was no way I could have finished it. It’s okay, though — you’ll see those reviews in the coming months!

On The Personal Side…

January was a pretty okay month for me. I took a few risks that were at least worth taking even if they don’t pay off, and I have some great ideas for new projects. I want to write a cute YA romance between two enbies, one who is very secure with who they are and one who is questioning her gender, and I also want to design an independent study course for the final term of my master’s degree on library resources for comics studies. I really hope that works out!

I am just a few short months away from graduating with my master’s, which is weird. This is my 20th consecutive academic year since I first started going to preschool in fall of ’98, and since I don’t currently have plans to get another degree after I finish this one, I’m looking at an actual break from academia for the first time in two decades starting in June. I’m not sure how I feel about that yet. On the one hand, school is stressful, but on the other I don’t really know anything else.

February is the month where I hope that I can fine-tune my new plans for an actual blog post calendar, and the month where I hope to do more of my own writing. I want it to be a great month!

How was your January? Did you read anything you just adored? Do you have any cool February goals or plans?

#24in48 Readathon Wrap-Up!

As I mentioned last week, the #24in48 Readathon was this past weekend! I managed to read the whole 24 hours, and I even won a book during hour 42. It’s not my only motivation for doing the readathon by any means, but during the previous one I’d won a hardcover of How To Make A Wish by Ashley Herring Blake, and I believe I won a galley of an intriguing thriller this time, and winning books is just fun. Here’s an overview of my weekend!

Stats:

Time spent reading: 24 hours 10 minutes 34 seconds

Pages read: 3,145

Books read: 10

Library books read: 2

Books read for class: 2

eARCs read: 6

Fiction books read: 8

Nonfiction books read: 2

Hours I spent doing homework instead of reading: ~5

Number of times I realized that I had an assignment due a week earlier than I thought it was originally due and had to scramble to finish it 22 minutes before the deadline: 1

Books Read:

  1. The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Emily M. Danforth — 4 of 5 stars
  2. The Girl With The Red Balloon by Katherine Locke — 5 of 5 stars
  3. Down In The Belly Of The Whale by Kelley Kay Bowles (ARC) — 1 of 5 stars
  4. See All The Stars by Kit Frick (ARC) — 5 of 5 stars
  5. The Smoke Thieves by Sally Green (ARC) — 3 of 5 stars
  6. The Summer of Jordi Perez (And The Best Burger In Los Angeles) by Amy Spalding (ARC) — 4.5 of 5 stars
  7. The Cat Encyclopedia for Kids by Joanne Mattern (ARC) — 3 of 5 stars
  8. My Cat Yugoslavia by Pajtim Statovci — 2 of 5 stars
  9. Krazy: George Herriman, A Life In Black And White by Michael Tisserand — 5 of 5 stars
  10. Queerly Loving #2 edited by G Benson and Astrid Ohletz (ARC) –5 of 5 stars

While I clearly read some books that I didn’t think were that great, I loved a lot of the books I read! That also got me all caught up on my Netgalley ARCs, though I still need to actually write the reviews for them now. Speaking of which, reviews for many of these books are forthcoming — stay tuned!

Did you participate in #24in48 this weekend? How was your experience? Let me know in the comments!

TBR Thursday: #24in48 Edition!

It’s still Thursday on the west coast for another 55 minutes. Fight me.

Today is a very special TBR Thursday — it’s the TBR Thursday where I detail my expected reading list for the 24 in 48 Readathon! This readathon session runs from January 27th at midnight EST through January 28th at 11:59 PM EST, and the goal is to read for 24 hours during that 48-hour period. Or as much as you can. It’s up to you!

I am, admittedly, making up my reading list as I write this post. I may add things. I may change my mind this weekend. Who knows? For now, here are my reading plans! (Which mostly involves catching up on ARCs!)

1.) The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Emily M. Danforth

I am conveniently choosing to ignore the fact that this on my last TBR Thursday. Especially since my last TBR Thursday was actually on Monday. It WILL be read.

2.) The Girl With The Red Balloon by Katherine Locke

I need to read a historical fiction YA novel for class! And I own the ebook! Yay! This one is also a definite read for this weekend.

3.) Down In The Belly Of The Whale by Kelley Kay Bowles

I have ARCs I need to read! I’m going to focus a little heavily on the ones I have from NetGalley this weekend. I’ve only barely joined and need to raise my ratio quite a bit (because someone accidentally got auto-approved for four books during LibraryCon LIVE! without realizing that clicking = the book is on my shelf now… That’s how I got Reign of the Fallen!)

4.) See All The Stars by Kit Frick

See above thing about NetGalley. I’m excited for this one!

5.) The Smoke Thieves by Sally Green

This was one of the once I got accidentally during LibraryCon LIVE! and I know absolutely nothing about it. I’m going to read it anyway!

6.) The Summer Of Jordi Perez by Amy Spalding

The only ARC I have from Edelweiss! This is another one that I’m really excited for.

 

Reading is essentially going to take place entirely on my iPad this weekend, and I am okay with this. I need to use my Kindle app more since I already have so much good stuff on there!

Are you participating in #24in48, too? What are you planning to read?

TBR Thursday (Yes, I Know It’s Monday…)

TBR Thursday is a new thing that I’m doing that consists of me 1.) choosing a book that I haven’t read yet that I plan to get to this week, and 2.) me making up excuses about why I haven’t read it, most of which will be terrible. This week I’m doing it on Monday because I was too exhausted to post for the latter half of last week! I was working/volunteering/job interviewing from around 8 AM to 7 PM, give or take, during the last few weekdays, and so I generally got home and fell asleep because I was too tired to do anything.

…Anyways, last week’s book was Ramona Blue by Julie Murphy, and I did in fact read it! I did, however, read it after my digital loan had expired, and I had to resort to the “airplane mode” trick in order to keep the book on my iPad. It worked, everything is fine, and I loved it! You can check out my review here: Review: Ramona Blue by Julie Murphy

This week’s book is The Miseducation of  Cameron Post by Emily M. Danforth!

Image of book cover from Goodreads
Image of book cover from Goodreads

I have literally been putting this book off for years. I have no reason why I’ve been doing so except that I forget about the books on my Kindle VERY easily because I can’t physically see them without actually opening the app. Because of this, I don’t tend to read a lot of ebooks that aren’t library books. I’m trying to get into reading ebooks a little more, though, because I really don’t have a lot (read: any) shelf space left right now, won’t have more until I move into an actual single-family house eventually, and have ample space on my iPad to download stuff. I’ll get there eventually. Maybe.

The reason why I’m getting to this one this week is because I have to read a banned book for my YA resources class, and this book has been banned SEVERAL times before. Since I already own it, I might as well use it, right?

I have a bunch of books I want to read next week, including new purchases (intentional and unintentional… Amazon decided that I wanted to buy Highly Illogical Behavior by John Corey Whaley on Kindle while I was culling my book wish list, so I own that one now. Good thing it was one I actually wanted eventually, but yeesh) and library books, so we’ll see how that goes!

What are you reading this week? Let me know in the comments!

Top Ten Tuesday: Ten Books I Meant To Read In 2017 But Didn’t Get To (and totallyyyy plan to get to in 2018!!)

Top Ten Tuesday was created by The Broke and the Bookish in June of 2010 and was moved to That Artsy Reader Girl in January of 2018. It was born of a love of lists, a love of books, and a desire to bring bookish friends together.

This week’s topic is books I meant to read in 2017… and didn’t. This happened A LOT to me before my reading slump, but it’s also happening pretty frequently to me now because I’m just finding so many books that I want to read, and my piles are stacking up. Here are ten books I meant to read in 2017 and will hopefully read in 2018!

10.) I Believe in a Thing Called Love by Maurene Goo

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I borrowed this ebook from my library and have around 24 hours left to finish it or so! By the time you read this, I should have read it. Hopefully.

[Note from Future Benni: This review is already up! After I finished writing this post, I looked at my loans and realized that this book was actually due back in *3* hours and so it got moved to my Emergency TBR. Whoops.]

9.) This is Where It Ends by Marieke Nijkamp

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Ebook bought at the beginning of the year. You’re going to sense a theme here — I buy ebooks or borrow ebooks, and I forget about them. This is largely why I prefer hard copy over ebooks. I don’t mind reading ebooks, but if the book isn’t in sight then I’ll often forget about it!

8.) The Girl With The Red Balloon by Katherine Locke

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Another ebook purchase offense. I haven’t had this book for quite as long, so I don’t have to feel as guilty about it. Even if I should still feel guilty.

7.) Warcross by Marie Lu

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I got a post-publication ARC of this book from attending LibraryCon Live!, and because it’s already out into the world I’ve been focusing more energy on the ARCs I have that have yet to be published. Bad excuse.

6.) When Dimple Met Rishi by Sandhya Menon

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I waited for months on the waiting list to check out the ebook from my library, but I eventually bought a hardcover while they were pretty cheap on Amazon. I feel like I’ve been pushing this one off longer than I actually have in reality, but still. Guilt.

5.) On the Edge of Gone by Corinne Duyvis

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Another beginning of the year ebook purchase! I have plans to read this book for a module of my YA resources class this term, so I will DEFINITELY be getting to this one this year.

4.) Ramona Blue by Julie Murphy

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Another library ebook that I need to read! If you look at my OverDrive account right now, you’d think that I should feel less guilty about this one than I Believe in a Thing Called Love because it is not due nearly as soon. Unfortunately, you’d be wrong — this is my second time checking it out because I totally didn’t get to it the first time and now I should feel ALL THE GUILT!

3.) Noteworthy by Riley Redgate

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I almost bought this book multiple times last year and just… Didn’t… Do it… But then I did! I’ve really been wanting to read this one, so why I’ve been putting it off is a mystery to me.

2.) How to Make a Wish by Ashley Herring Blake

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I won this book during the 24 in 48 Readathon this summer! And I still haven’t read it despite how amazing everyone says it is! I also have plans to read this book for my YA resources class, so I’ll be getting to it soon. I promise.

1.) The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Emily M. Danforth

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I bought this ebook in 2013, and I believe that is all the context you need here… Out of sight, out of mind, right?

 

What books have you been putting off reading? Have you been putting off any books for five years (or longer!) like I have? Let’s discuss this in the comments!